Wednesday, November 30, 2011

Les Petits Cadeaux Dan La Vie

KC was away for business trip for about 5 days a week ago. I was getting tired of packing and since the weather is cooling, i opted to stay home instead.

Can you imagine being alone in the house for 5 days? 5 long days without any interaction with any other human being except myself? To think of it already freaks me out! Well.....i still did stay home at the end. The only thing i secretly hope was that i will not turn myself into a nut job at the end of the week.


But then again life works in a funny way. It will always brings you something unexpected. Sometimes it is like a cute gift that you will savor but sometimes it will just bring you straight to hell. This time around, i got lucky because life brought me some little boxes of chocolate, at different days. They are small enough for me to be happy but not too much to make me drown.

The few days when KC was not around, i spent my days watching Sex and the City, all from season 1 to 6. I know i am way too long overdue but i never had the excitement to watch it! This time i am glad i did. Watching the drama brought back so much fond memories of myself. Sometimes i could even see myself going through what some of the characters were going through in the drama. It was like "oooh...that was so me!", "oooh..... i been through that!" And i finished all 6 seasons! So one more thing to cross from my to do list.

Let's talk about the "gift" from life. Since the hubbies are not around, we decided to have girls night only by having shabu-shabu + bbq. So 4 girls decided to just bring out whatever we had in the fridge and threw ourselves a very nice dinner.

It was fun for all of us. It was even more fun for Yu-chan. She was 3 when i got the honor to take away here shabu-shabu "virginity"! Hahah it was her very first time to have shabu-shabu and she was thrilled by the whole idea. Her eyes grew big with excitement when she saw the soup boiling together with all the food she loves. As for Sat-chan, she was just so happy with the whole night and so much more in love with me. For the first time, she came to me, gave me a big hug and told me that she loves me! hahaha and i even got a kiss from Yu-chan too. So i guess i was the big winner here.



A simple dinner turned into a good 4 hours spent eating and us (the big girls) chatting. By the time it ended it was already time for bed. So there you go, one day gone meaning one day nearer from the day KC will be back.

The next day i spent my time again watching tv and some times having tea with the girls too. It turn out that the day that the hubbies was due to be back was our very birthday for Yu-chan. So again i got this life "gift" to spend the afternoon with them celebrating her birthday. Nothing fancy. They baked their own fruit cake and i brought some chocolates as add ons. Plus, i get to be the photographer too!



By the time we finished with the birthday celebrations, it was only hours aways when the hubbies came back with goodies. For them, the little ones get to have presents and most importantly japanese tit bits. For us big girls, we got our hubbies, huge hugs and of course some pressies too.

There, my gifts from life.

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

Fork! Fark!

Let's face the reality. When it comes to keeping a diary like the old times or keeping a blog like now, it started off hot and consistent until one day we decided to skip a day. A day turned to a week, followed by a month and then it was indefinitely.

BUT.... the day when we feel like hell on earth, will be day that we remember about our little diary or blog again. I guess today is my day.

Of course the percentage of us writing something happy versus something angry/sad/frustrated/disappointed is something like 20:80 and today i fall into the 80%.

I am pissed / angry / disappointed all rushing to me at the same time!

I just got ditch by a long time friend! And this is a second ditching too! To add salt to the wound, she was the one who decided that our friendship is cheaper than dirt the last time she decided to ditch me over lunch. When i demanded a reason why, she simply just told me she never thought of calling me before hand to tell me that she couldn't make it. Oh well, i was really pissed! I mean who would not?

After a long time of cold war, i decided to just look into the good times we had and took the first step to contact her. Anyways she was celebrating something nice and i wanted to just take this chance to say hi and congratulate her.

It was a mistake! All the while when i thought she might feel remorse over what she had done to me, in reality, she doesn't give a shit. Her response to my first step was cold. Can you believe it????

What makes it worst is after this cold treatment, i still went all the way to try to make contact with her and even told her that we should chat. And she said yes, telling me that she will. That was 24 hours ago. There she is, saying things that she didn't meant to keep up with. Here i am still waiting for her to show up and trying really hard to suppress my angers. Deep down i knew that she doesn't give a shit to our friendship and yet i am still trying to convince myself that she is busy. How much more evidences do i need before i am convinced that she just doesn't give a shit about our friendship?

Damn! Wake up you fool! Fark your sadness and move on!