A few weeks ago he went from a strong dog to a very thinned-to-its-bones dog. Since he has just recovered from heart worm, no one really take notice of the shedding pounds. A week earlier, we bought him to the vet and he was diagnosed with fatal liver cancers. We were all shocked.
Though the vet recommended us to put him to sleep because he could no longer performs his normal activities properly such as eating, drinking or pooping, we could not do it and decided to just bring him home. For us, Bubu has been with us for the last 12 years. And Chinese always believes that when a soul would leave a body, the best place to ascend to heaven is from the house which he/she has been living in.
Initially when Bubu came back, he got better and began to eat and drink normally, though lack the energy to even stand up. We were happy. But after that his condition began to deteriot and he was suffering. Due to our selfishness to keep him alive, he had to suffer. He could no longer control his poops or pees and he could not eat and drink anymore.
At the end, mum and I knew that we could no longer be so selfish and decided that it is time to put him to sleep. It was supposed to be today.
This morning however Bubu decided that he would want to leave us at his own pace. He left us some time midnight yesterday. To be honest, i was relieved for him. I think finally he no longer need to suffers anymore. I no longer is as emotional as when i first knew about his cancer.
Yesterday was Wesak Day. It was the birthday of the Buddha. Yesterday night before mum went to bed, she told Bubu that it was his time to go to heaven and asked him no to wake up anymore. She said that she also did talk to Jesus to take Bubu to heaven.
I am not a Buddhist or Christian. But for this instant, i would want to believe that either Buddha or Jesus has taken Bubu together with them when they went back to heaven yesterday. I want to believe that Bubu is now at a happy state, sitting beside either of them.
I believe that Bubu is in heaven because Disney once told me that all dogs go to heaven.
Dear Bubu, thanks for being with us and protecting us for the past 12 years. Though you were very mischievous and notorious for your liking in attacking neighbours' dogs, though you have cost us more than an arm and a leg all these year, we are glad to have you with us and you will always be missed. Love you forever. Hope you are resting in peace and that heaven is full of all the food you loved.
