Motherhood

my dad has a new family and i am happy for him. and he just got himself a new baby girl too. she is like a new breeze flowing into our boring family and brings sense of excitement and new life in all of us.

whenever i see the mother, somehow i feel sorry for her. my dad is definitely a big man. she is for sure happily being the woman behind him. at her age, which is only a couple of years above me, her life now should be free and full with excitement.

she has already been through motherhood at her early age, not once but twice. her kids are always in their teenage and could take care of themselves very well. if i were her, being married to a man now that could bring her traveling around would be a fantastic way to live her life. she is free from all the burden of kids and money.

but she chose to have a baby instead and have to go through motherhood again. looking at her and the changes she made, i salute her. i see her now swallowing her food, taking the quickest shower ever, every ready to feed the baby and looking tired most of the time. the pregnancy and delivery of the baby has worn her out. she used to have a good clothing body but now is gone and she realizes that. once i even see the sadness in her eyes when she said that there is nothing in her wardrobe that she can fit into. she was not exaggerating because even now her choices on clothes are lesser. either they no longer fit her or she takes precedent of her baby's welfare over styles and designs.

so this is motherhood all about huh?

but then sometimes when i see how much love there is from her eyes when she looks at the baby, i am sure she did not regret it. when i see how clingy the baby is towards her, there is nothing in the world that can replace that. and when one day, when my dad is gone, i am sure she will be happy to know that she will not have to face the world alone without him because, i am sure she will finds my dad in the baby whenever she sees her.

make sure you treat and love you mother as much as you can, Ru.